maaandy

2011-01-27T06:43:00.000-08:00

Goodnight love, gonna dream of this chick

♥xoxo

2011-01-27T06:02:00.000-08:00

When I was walking out of school today, I random thought hit me. And I felt like I grew up, suddenly. I finally from the bottom of my heart, am not going to judge people by how they look anymore. I used to claim that I don't, but just now I felt that I've been treating people differently by the way they look, their background, their status and the list goes on. I'm sure most of you reading this have once upon a time or still is that person I described myself to be. It is undeniable, however holy however angelic, it's still within human right to judge. Like how you may give an ah lian the you're-a-dumbfuck look but give your lecturer that you're dying to suck up to a you're-the-best-shit-ever look. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that from now I'm gonna be nice to everyone. But in general, especially to the people that I'm not close with or that I've never met, the people that I don't have the right to judge. Whether she's some hot andro at PLAY or the toilet aunty from NYP, they should all be at an equal level in my eyes. Cos I believe in karma(I'm not doing this for good karma, I just don't think it's nice), that it would not only hit on me but also my loved ones. Talking about karma, that asscrack that hacked into my twitter account will get her/his asshole bitten by karma. I'm sorry I just ranted a lot about some random thought.

I feel very happy today not because I downed 5 tequila shots and didn't KO, not because I ponned school, because mama cooked my favorite dish for dinner! And I did pedicure for her after dinner and I'm gonna sleep with her tonight hehe :B And breakfast together tomorrow. How romantic. I'd seriously rather romantic with mama than wasting my time on a date.

I love you SSBO, cheer up ok. Really really love you a lot! :') You must be wondering who is SSBO. She's my darlin'. Hahaha. And she's fucking hot stuff ;);)

2011-01-02T10:54:00.001-08:00

I need to be up in 5 hours and I'm not even tired yet. That's for sleeping at 6am last night and waking up at 4pm today. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR GIRLS & GUYS. To all my close friends, I love you all so fuckin' much really. I kinda broke my new year's resolution on new year day I know I'm quite fucked up. 2010 I would say, have been eccentric. My first year in NYP, made new great awesome classmates. Not much friends around in school since everyone else is in a less dope school like RP. I'm still close to my 2 BFFs S & M. Although there were quite a few dispute with M but I'd say it brought us closer. Just came back from our Genting trip, I really enjoyed myself there. Go check out the pix on FB. Only have the Safari photos tho, since S haven't upload the rest. Really nice pictures, could see the clouds like everywhere around us lol. Not forgetting the Hayden-shaws, I love all my anaks a lot. For cooking awesome shepherd's pie and pasta and for going through all the fun together ♥ Worst year for mama tho. She fell sick during April this year. Went for a major operation, recovered speedily and gonna be done with her treatment next month. I never cried so much in my life before. Grandma is a C survivor and if I were to go through what she did, I know I wouldn't even be that strong. Also positively, brought me closer to God.. Definitely Shay's best year cos of her Asian Game's achievement.

Spent the first 3/4 of the year with someone who means a lot to me and is very special, a great girl. The one that made me realize what love is. We used to argue cos we were too different. But only now when I realize being different is what it takes to make a perfect pair. Only after I lose her, I realize how precious she is. I know this sounds familiar and you're probably gonna be oblivious towards it but trust me, appreciate the people around you.. It'll be too late to know that he/she is never gonna come back. Met a guy on Halloween and spent the last 1/4 of 2010 with him. Not exactly with actually. Never thought I would love a guy again but I did. Bad bad idea though. Things got messy, even messier now.

Lastly, I wanna apologize for the things that I did or did not do. For being the ultimate bitch at the wrong time. Actually, I won't be a bitch if you didn't piss me off. So I'm not sorry for being a bitch. But if I were a bitch accidentally then fine, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the hearts that I broke. I'm sorry for sleeping with ur gf (JUST KIDDING). Oh, and I literally partied like 90% of the holidays away. It has got to stop already. Let's see how mand's gonna transform into a goodie-two-shoes :B

I should really go sleep now. P.S if you're reading this, BBM me will you? I really miss you >:{ I mean it......... :(

2010-12-07T08:02:00.001-08:00

Hiiii. I don't know why I suddenly had this urge to blog so here I am. It's ICA 1 period now and my stats and accounts test is on friday. Haven't start studying stats yet. So screwed. Just a brief update.. Went to Guang Zhou to support Shay for Asian Game, she's awesome. I don't have to blog about this cos everyone know. So I skipped a week of school and could hardly catch up. But I guess I'm cool now. Had several friendship issues and almost lost a friend, glad it's all over. I hate it. I need to stop dominating everything. I know I may have been a bitch at times I'm trying not to and I'm sorry. I haven't been meeting the Hayden-shaws that often so I'm missing them like dog. OH, MY BIRTHDAY :) Had an advanced surprise from my family + extended family at some gathering, then kkkkrazy night out with my 2 favorite girls at chips, dinner at Padi's with my 2 babehz again + Yucong, Tau Hway all over me by my classmates, and lastly from the lezbianz @ fort canning! Oh, and I went to zouk legally on my birthday night LEGALLY. HAHA so funny man. It feels so weird entering a club with my original IC. I'm fucking legal, after literally 3 years of clubbing, getting drunk, and the list goes on.. Gonna sign up for my license soon. I have no time for license and dental. So damn busy!! Ok, and I'm looking forward to Genting with Steph, Mel and Yucong! :) BYE

2010-11-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone :D I'm waiting for my iPod to quickly finish synchronizing then I'll play games till I fall asleep. It's so funny how Nazeera and the rest got so pissed off that I keep breaking their high scores. I think I found a new talent in myself. This shows how quick and efficient my finger are, girls ;) OK I WAS KIDDING. I think I should stop eating. Grandma and I have been munching on snax the whole day, before and after dinner. I'm left with my last 2 packets of Pola snack. Haha so retarded, I used to have Pola snack and soya bean for recess in St Nick's primary. I'd run straight down to canteen and get those then to the play ground and play monkey bar with the Pola snack in my pocket. Yay my iPod's done syncing. Bye! ^^

2010-10-17T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hey! Just a blink and the 2 months holiday has come to an end. It's 12 midnight and I should be sleeping very soon. I don't know how I'm gonna sleep as I've been sleeping earliest 4am every night during the holidays. Just wanna get some stuff off my chest before the brand new semester begins. New lecturer and tutors. New modules. And hopefully a new life. I'm going through quite a fucked up phase of my life now. My girlfriend and I are about to break up (I'm certain), my best friend's mom fucking hates me like she wants me dead right now, no more partying/late night out for me cos school's starting tomorrow.

I just can't stand it when people just start judging me without even know me. As far as i know myself. I party hard when it's time for party, I study hard when it's study time, I love unconditionally when it comes to love, I do as much as I can for my family and I cancel any appointment just to accompany grandma for her checkups. How bad can someone like me be? So please, don't fucking judge me when you don't even know me or my history. You're probably insecure or dumb to judge anyone, especially me. I know everyone judges people cos you're not god. But you don't have the right to fucking hate someone so much when all I did to give you the basic human right to respect. That's one.

Secondly, I don't see why my relationship is going all down into the drain. Being washed off by the soft flowing water. What amuses all is that, I don't even feel the pain anymore at all. I'm all numbed. All I could feel now is exhaustion. Like I'm so dehydrated after a love marathon and I need to down a bottle filled with love to quench my thirst. Ok, I know I suck in expressing my feelings but that was what came into my mind. Now, I just need to finish the fucking tiring marathon and then search for another sport to do. Maybe like going back to bowling cos it's less tiring? Ok only some of my close friends would understand what the fuck I'm blabbering about :)

I'm just tryna say that I tried my best. And I think I'm ready to give up this relationship and move on.

Okie I'm kinda done with this post. Gonna finish my beer and head to bed soon hopefully. Feel free to add me @ sadlonelyheartbrokenuglydopegurlzxc1992@hotmail.com

Personal shout-out

you1: let's end this

you2: BBM me soon I kinda feel like talking to you. I don't believe you never thought of me.

you3: come on fb chat again soon. dont forget ur promise, x

you4: friends only~

2010-09-27T02:35:00.000-07:00

Lebian : Is she crook?

Friend : No

Lesbian : Damnnnn, wasted..

Straight guy : Is she crook?

Friends : Yeah

Straight guy : Damnnnnn, wasted..

2010-09-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

Hey I'm back to my lazy mood again. I'll always be damn lazy to blog during school period and now when exams are all over, I'm busy shopping, traveling, eating, sleeping, playing tap zoo and watching Gossip Girl. But at least I'm blogging now. Haha, I could have spend this 10 mins watching Gossip Girl instead. Hahah. As for some of you may have heard that I just came back from my trip, it was super tiring! I arrived at Macau at 2am, gambled at Venetian's casino till morning and took a ferry over to HK to watch Shayna bowl then took a ferry over to Zuhai, spent the night there and back to Macau. We travelled 3 places within 3 days. Didn't do much shopping, but took lots of pictures. Went places like St Paul, Lizboa, Fisherman's village, I can't remember the rest. Quite a few of their tourist attraction. I like Macau the most among the 3 countries! Partly cos there were casino in every hotel :D I was so happy to be back! Missed grandma and girlfriend so much! :( Oh, and I'll see you ifyou're going/working for the F1 cos I'll be working on Fri, Sat and Sun. I won't be able to go Nazeera's place for Raya this Sat :( I have so many things to blog about but I don't wanna start cos it'll end up a fucking ong post so I'm gonna stop here. Update again soon!

2010-09-04T08:39:00.001-07:00

HI EVERYBODY :D It's gonna be 12 soon. I'm gonna blog until 12 then I'll start studying. My goal for tonight is to study 6 hours straight without gossip girl break in between but I honestly doubt my focus. I'm screwed yknow. I'm only halfway through POM and haven't started on AFA at all. But I'm not gonna think about studies until the clock says 12 :P
Went to visit greatgrandma at the church today. We had memorial service after that which I was so close to falling asleep. Went to chomps with grandma and family for dinner. 2nd time having dinner in chomps this week! :) I'm planning to stay home the whole of tomorrow to study. Which I will prolly wake up at 4pm considering that I'm gonna sleep at 6 in the morning. My oh my, this is the time where I hope that swine flu comes back and we can postpone the exams. K, I'm kidding. And since I'll be staying home the whole day tomorrow, I shall take some fibre later. I haven't been shitting or like the past 2 days? And if I do take the fibre, I'll probably visit the loo every hour tomorrow. Ok, I'm running out of things to blog that's why I'm talking about this. Don't judge me ok. I'm just waiting for it to be 12.
I'm so glad mel is done with her attachment already. So I can meet her more often. But I'm upset that both Steph and Mel are going away soon. They always abandon me in this shit hole while they have fun in their hometown. Whether it's Bangkok, America, or Hongkong. Well, mine's SINGAPORE -.- Nvm, I'll just let Gossip Girl/HIMYM keep me company. I'm sure I have a lot of things to do and people to meet but I'm just super lazy. So, do call me out after this wednesday k. Especially if your name is Clare-Marie or Benjamin Tan or Shaunna De Cruz etc. I'll appreciate it :) Or my Prince Charming. I'm currently actually looking for a guy that can charm me. I still haven't found any charming guy. I think there isn't any in Singapore. But I won't give up on hunting for my prince charming :) Don't be jealous my bbygirl, I love you the same. I just wanted to know if my prince charming actually exist. Ok, 7 minutes more to 12. I should just click "PUBLISH POST" and then go make a glass of hot and creamy milk to drink and start doing the thing I dread most, to study..

2010-08-13T11:23:00.000-07:00

Its 14/08/2010 today, when grandpa decides to leave. I'm certain it's a better and more beautiful place with no worries and pain anymore. I'm happy for him :) R.I.P gong gong.. I'm sorry I've gotta cancel whatever plans I made with whoever till Wednesday. Beach with baby, lunch with Edlyn, study with Didi, Lunch with Clare, and so on. I'm sorry and I hope you understand.

So I had a great day today. I met yx in town for Wendy's. Had my baked potato with chilli and cheese yuuum, how does that sound? :) Met my baby girl for dinner at chomp chomp for super shiok dinner. We had stingray, chicken wing, hokkien mee and satay. Stupid girl was too full to eat the chicken wing, I finished everything. HAHA I swear I'm growing fatter. Then to HappyDaze for a beer and study (a bit). It's the first time I tried drinking and studying at the same time haha. Baby needed to leave about at 12, so I went to look for Sam Lye and friends at serangoon north. Chilled there a bit until my sister came to fetch me. Shit, I seriously need to get into the study mode soon. Itz not funny I DO NOT wanna repeat any modules ok. Gonna pig out already, needa wake up super early tomorrow. Ciao!

2010-08-08T12:45:00.000-07:00

I dropped by grandma's place today to see her pwetty face ^^ Spent some quality time with her then went to visit grandpa with my family then dine at West Coast Plaza. We had super awesome dinner at some Halal place. We had a table full of dishes we could hardly finish. Curry fish head (Y). I was so full that I couldn't bend forward and had problem walking. Headed home after dinner, Stace came over to "surprise" Shay. Went to clifton's place after which for a short while. Drank a bit and gambled (smallbig). I won like a dollar -.- Yep, I've been drinking quite a lot of beer recently. Also eating like there's no tomorrow. I've just started working out today. I'm too lazy to skip like how I did before. I'm just gonna like sit-ups for 15 minutes everyday. I'll hopefully see some results within 2 months :/ I'm kinda excited for Science center tomorrow with Mel and Adam. We're gonna go like Snow City, Omni Theatre & Science center. Sounds great? Hope it turns out great too :) The only problem now is that, it's 4am and I'm not asleep. That's quite a problem cos I'll definitely have problem waking up tomorrow. The reason why I'm not asleep now is cos I'm unhappy with somebody and she is probably sleeping already. She thinks that she's the only one feeling like shit when she's making me feel even worst. And when I try to talk to her about it, she just puts all the blame on me and accuse me of saying things I never. And she will just tell me its nothing when I ask her, when she keep going on about how upset she is with "her life" which is probably referring to me. Even after me telling her there's nothing to worry about. Convincing her that I'll only love her even when there's many guys out there liking me. That she's the only one for me and I'll never leave her. Oh wells my life just sux. I need to talk to somebody who understand me. Probably Angie ♥

2010-08-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

Hi I'm blogging again. You ought to give me a (Y). I'm kinda bored, and also waiting for my babygirl to come over. So yessss, its the holidays already. Not exactly holidays actually. We call it holidays(Y), they call it study break(N). I'm kinda worried for my school work cos I really don't understand shit. I don't understand Econs and Stats AT ALL. AFA is the only subject that I'm scoring for. I failed ICA1 for stats and I'm feeling the pressure. But I'm glad Internet Web and Effective Comm is over, 2 module down :D Yeah, I've been unbelievably broke recently. It's only the 7th day of the week now and I'm left with $100 for the rest of the month. Cos I spent so much on shopping and unnecessary things. I buy accessories after accessories, clothes after clothes, and shoes especially. My shoe shelf has no more room for new shoes. They're over flowing and it looks rather messy, dad complains about how the living room look so messy cos of my never-ending increasing pairs of shoes.

Anyway, I watched SALT last midnight. I'll give it a 4 popcorn out of 5. It's one of the action movies that I actually bother watching and rating. I never liked action movies, I'd much prefer chic flicks like SATC x. Evelyn SALT is the bomb, She'z so damn hawt. The lips especially. hiakhiak ;)

My back is burning like a frying pan. I think my body temperature is like 39d? Thanks to Sentosa yesterday. I have like shades tan on my face and my nose is red like a ladybird ^^ Had fun at Sentosa yesterday with my BEST classmates :) Okay my baby's here. Buaizxc <3

2010-07-31T11:16:00.000-07:00

Hihi ^^ You must be surprised that I'm actually blogging in my almost dead blog. I bet no one visits my blog anymore. So if you're reading this, you're probably the only one reading my post now, congratulations! :D I'm just freaking bored and kinda high. I got so bored while studying so I went to get beer from the fridge. Which clearly explains why I'm blogging now. Every time I log onto my blog, I'll think of you. Cos we have the similar password. It used to be a pretty pleasant thought in the past, but now I'll think of both you and ur fugly girlfriend, it just turns me off. Makes me wanna puke x 103248625. Eeeewwwzxc. Wheeeheee guess what! Its my monthsary with my babygirl today :) Hahahaha, my longest relationship! (Y) Don't judge me ok, I'll show you how faithful I am ;) We gonna watch street dance tomorrow, better be good! 3 upcoming ICAs next week. Planned to study today but when baby came over we ended up eating and playing.. as usual. I'm proud of jiejieShayna for doing Singapore proud by breaking the world record with Jazzy for doubles and winning silver for team (Y) thumbs up for you, and the other girls :) I'm kinda hungry now cos I haven't ate my dinner yet. My teeth hurts! =C But good news that the gaps between my teeth have narrowed. You know I didn't have gaps between my teeth before braces. Now I have literally holes. When I have mash potato i can like squirt it out from the gaps. 4 gaps. So retarded. Okla I'm gonna doze off already. I will try to blog again soon :) Good night world, god bless. I love my girlfie <3.

2010-05-19T07:47:00.001-07:00

Hi babies! Sorry I haven't had the mood to blog in damn long again. What's new right, I'm always lazy to blog. My life's been still the same like before :) I'm attached, how exciting can my life get. I'm not saying that I hate being attached. Everything has it's pros and cons. I love school! I love my classmates like so much. I love the BEST CLASS :D We're so united. To my surprise, we're more united than my secondary school's class. WOW right? I joined Frisbee as my CCA but haven't been attending much of the trainings cos got no cute/hot girls/guys to motivate me to train regularly. I never knew my poly life would be so much fun :) Not forgetting IJ of cos! I would wish to go for Fiesta this friday but that's if my grandma's fine. She's going for an op on friday. Please pray for her people :) I'd greatly appreciate it seriously.. I'm blogging now actually becos I'm staying over grandma's house and I have nothing much to do. I'm like beside her now, she's sleeping away. Okay I know that was redundant, I'm just bored. I'd be disturbing my sister if I'm at home now. Or on the line with Adam, or watching L word, or studying. I don't understand my work at all. I never expected studying in a Polytechnic could turn out to be so stressful. Statistic's fucking my brain up side down. The only subjs I find manageable are Accounting for Assets (cos I took them in sec sch) and Public Speaking (cos its just talking, how had can it get?). The rest like Econs and POA sucks. Okay I'm gonna spend some time watching videos then sleep. Check Peter Chao out, he's so funny! http://www.youtube.com/user/pyrobooby?blend=1&ob=4 And lastly, let me share some facts about Mandy Melissa. I think I'm 2% straight now. Not bad, I'm improving eh. From 0%-2%. I'm attracted to cute Malay boys (boys not mats). I've been rather depressed lately over personal issues and my girlfriend just made it worst so like whatever seriously. And I miss Ain and Shaunna! :(

2010-04-14T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hi hi everybody. Tomorrow will be the first day of orientation. Poly is starting already! I'll be busy again. I hope I didn't choose the wrong course and may I do well. I'm quite nervous uncertain for orientation tomorrow. I will be exposed to a totally different environment, totally dissimilar as what I would experience in IJ for the past 11 years. I'm sure I'll be able to adapt to the crowd there, but that's if I want to. I hope I meet more IJ girls during orientation. Or at least some people who are similar to me and most imptly, english speaking. I know I may sound like I'm judging too soon but I'm NOT judging ok. After this post I'm gonna pack my bag, choose the clothes to wear tomorrow, watch an episode of L word, and head of to la la land :) Gotta wake up at 7am tomorrow, what an ungodly hour. I haven't been up that early in half a year!
Time for update on the recent happenings. We had chalet at downtown east last week. We had so much fun. At least I had a few nights of fun before poly starts. Most of us there were girls. It was like a fucking lesbian party. Everyone there were either gay or used to be gay. I liked it, I like girls :) Hmmm and someone has been depositing money into my debit card lately. At the chalet when i checked my balance, I was left with xxx. After chalet I check again, I had xxx+50. Today I checked, I had xxx+50+30. Ok I know I'm not suppose to be complaining for having more money, but I find it strange. I asked every possible person if they were to debit money into my account. But never mind, I don't have to know who you are. You're most welcome to debit as much money you want into my account. Your whole life saving would be good :) I'm now a good girl that don't club anymore :D I'm not even tempted to anymore. Whenever people ask me, I'll be like "No! I rather sleep!". Hanging out at a bar, chilling, drinking, is so much better. What else what else. Oh I'm gonna perm my hair soon. Should I? I really feel like it. I'm so sick and tired of my current hair although I just touched up the color. Its like straight and boring :( Thats about it I can't really think of what to blog. I guess my life's just boring shit. Alright, wish me all the best for tomorrow! <3

2010-04-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

Hi everybody its good friday today! And I decided to stay home and be an angel :) I'm not exactly home, I'm at grandma's house. I decided to come here today. I come here almost every weekday anyway! I love grandma! And I'm gonna try to come here on sunday again. Cos next tues-fri I'll be having chalet and will not be coming. I brought materials I bought from spotlight so I can start working on my laptop case later. I will take a picture of it when I'm done. You'll be surprised in how well my handicraft is! Maybe not, I haven't done anything got to do with sewing in a long time. The last time, was the bolster case for Willie! I'll work on it later and get back to you :) I'm so excited for the chalet! So is everybody else! :D I know Isfa is super excited! Hahahah. Okay so recently I've been feeling rather adventurous! And I'm sorry I made Adam accompany me in doing crazy things. For example going hiking in the blue moon, going Fort Canning but only walked less than half of the place and climbing our ways up to Henderson wave! I love you baby, Happy monthsary to youu and I <3>

2010-03-15T08:32:00.000-07:00

Herrow, this is the first post I'm posting using my baby mac. It's now 3 days old! I'm so excited about it, but I still haven't got used to it yet. Like not at all. So recently, I've been feeling very accomplished and contented. Basically, I haven't step into a club in ages! Since I last said I quit clubbing, I really quit. Its a waste of money cos you'll probably cab there and back. So at least $30 gone just for transportation. If you have no guestlist for the night, another $15 gone. Drink, $18. Supper after that, $10. That $73 gone just in one night. Not only that, why would you wanna squeeze yourself on the dance floor with ten thousand people there all either sweaty or with strong BO. Oh my god! And the queue! If you go to zouk on any regular wednesday nights at about 10, you'd have to queue at least 30 minutes to enter the place. And what makes it worst is that you will sleep in like a mother fucking log the whole of the next day till at least 4pm. And who knows you'll wake up the next day with a horrible hangover. There goes one whole day. BURNT! xxx. I'm not judging anyone who clubs or what cos I used to be super hardcore and on about clubbing so who am I to judge. I'll definitely still go clubbing occasionally but no, not like last time anymore. Like on special occasions when all my friends are gonna be there or when I feel like being an idiot. I also feel accomplished cos I managed to do something which I shouldn't publish it here openly on my blog! I have also been spending lots of time with my baby princess! Omg, I'm like so in love with her. The only thing that I haven't been doing is to go jogging. I'm such a lazy pig ok you have no idea. I set a exercise routine and I'll follow it for 2 days. It always happens. I have no motivation at all :( I need motivation! I don't even have motivation to blog. Everytime I blog halfway and I'll be like ok I don't feel like blogging anymore bye. I'm not gonna do that now. That is being irresponsible. Omg I seriously don't know what I'm going on and on about. I think you're just wasting your time reading my bullshit. Hahahaha. I can't wait to see my baby tomorrow! But she's leaving on wednesday. Mel's leaving on wednesday also. Isfa left 2 days ago. Everyone's leaving me alone in Singapore! :((( I feel like sleeping soon. And oh yeah nice, my macbook fucked my phone up. Now its like locked again. I don't know what happened. I need to bring it back to the shop tomorrow. I can receive and answer calls but I can't call out. I can receive messages but cannot send. Its fucking stupid. Uh whatever I'm not gonna think of anything and sleep soon. Goodnight everybody!

2010-03-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

Hiiii everybody! Mandy is back from Kuching! :) I missed home. And now I miss kuching. Went there to visit some of my relatives! I'm not too sure how I'm related to them but apparently, we're quite close. Ok there is totally no transport system there other than cars. I've seen only less than 5 buses and 2 taxi in my whole trip. Each house there owns at least 2 cars. There isn't any flat/high rise building there, all terraces or bigger. The food there are mostly organic and every meal I had were promising. It filled my tummy so full that my button almost came off, I could barely breathe. Spent half a day visiting houses as my father has 14 cousins there. And the 14 of them are siblings. They are of all age between 51-65 and they are all still so close and united. All of them gather at their mother's house every sunday for pot luck. Each of the 14 of them have a family of their own so you can imagine. I was in a house with about 50+ people and they are all of the same mother :/Envy much! Didn't do much shopping there. Visiting visiting visiting and eat eat eat (my favourite)! :) My parents and I bunked in one of their condos there that was empty. We had a perfect sea view from our balcony! Okay I'll let the pictures do the talking! :) Omg I'm so lazy to upload photos. I'll do it tomorrow! Bye.

2010-03-03T23:29:00.001-08:00

I just finished sorting out letters in alphabetical order. I've got nothing to do now. Today's my last day here :( I will definately miss the people here!! So I'll be starting the new job next week and I won't be able to support IJ B'div. I feel so bad! But if you guys qualify for masters I'll definately be there k promise!! I had so little sleep last night I'm dozing off every second! I can't wait to go grandma's house for dinner then to Bishan Park's pub for beer (SHIOK) with Clifton, Lau and I don't know who else. The thought of icy cold beer just makes me so tempted! I had beer last night at Warren too. I brought Adam to Warren for dinner. After dinner we went down to the arcade and played for quite a while like as if we're kids that are deprived in a way or another. The arcade was empty, just the both of us only. I Love her so much my baby princess! HAHA. K I'm gonna play some facebook game while time fly. Oh and I haven't pack my luggage when I'm leaving tomorrow!! :/

2010-03-02T16:42:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow will be my last day working in ASM. I'll be leaving on friday! :D I kinda like this place. The working environment and everything. And the job is easy. Although the filing gave me a lot of papercuts, the rest of admin stuff are easy! I just finished matching the invoices with the delivery notes and I'm working on excel now. The aircon is so cold, it numbs my finger. I look so clumsy while typing now cos my finger's so stiff. Hahaha. I don't know what went wrong with me recently, I stopped listening to english songs. And I keep listening to Chinese and Malay songs. Am I becoming an ahlian? Just because everyone in my office speaks chinese, I have to try my very best to speak my O level D7 chinese to communicate. I'm so bored I'm falling asleep. Oh and I'll be working with Mel for next week at the place she's working currently. It's somewhere around chinatown area. Hahah. And the week after, probably with Kim at TP. I'll see how, cos I haven't had time for my friends and girlfriend! I've been pushing back my dental every week until its now like 1 month plus already. When I was suppose to go back 2 weeks after my previous appointment. Looks like I cannot remove my braces in the next 2 months! :( UGLY. I'm gonna write in my journal now. Since I have so much in mind that I cannot post it up here. Can't wait to end work so I can see my baby! Ciao!

2010-02-26T07:45:00.000-08:00

I'm so sick and tired of working. The job's actually quite, no, extremely slack. But the fact that I have to leave home at 7am every morning is just seriously fucked up. I haven't been having my 13 hours of sleep in a long long time, sucks. Went for LSK's chalet at Changi last night then headed over to baby's house to sleep. Left her house at 6.30am for work, and I was still 10 minutes late. Can you imagine. Skipped lunch with colleagues, stayed in office to take a short nap instead :) I was practically like a zombie today. I only have several hours of sleep at Adam's house last night! Went to work with a fucking bad hang over from last night's circle of death. I spent like a few hours stoning, doing nothing in my office today. What's best is that I have a room to myself and I can do whatever I want. Excluding the fact that the internet in my room died, otherwise I'll be online! :( Prefer this job so much more than the previous one. The people here are nicer, not that the people from the previous job were bad. The environment's nicer. I get longer lunch breaks. I get to wear whatever I want to work. It's nearer to home. I can use my phone anytime I want. So anyway after work today, I met Isfa, Dom and Adam at Marina. Had dined, chilled, laughed, get mad and everything. I'm so happy I get to see my baby again today, sweeeeet :) I'm gonna bathe and off my system, sleep in with full blast air con. Gonna off my phone so there will be no disruptions. I'll wake up whenever I feel like tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU ADAM HAYDEN, 3 HEARTS FOR YOU BABY !
Although you don't love me as much as the 3 hearts but I'll love you with all my heart. Thanks for sending me all the way home. I'll spam you with my love letters everyday. You're my everything :)

2010-02-16T05:30:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everybody! I'm very bored now so I decided to blog. And the only reason why I'm bored is cos I just applied my face mask and I'm waiting for 15 minutes to come so I can remove it. I don't really see much effect upon using face mask. I just feel more refreshed. I don't see much difference on my face also. But I don't know why I'm still investing so much money on face, skin, nails, basically just beuty products which I honestly don't see any improvement after use. I haven't been for facial since O's ended. The pimples must have been the results of stress that I undergo. Weekly facial did not work at all. However, after the final exams ended, my face automatically cleared :) I'm not as lucky this year anymore. I lost money while gambling. I lost so horribly at Tim's house last night while playing in between (devil game). But I collected quite a bit from ang paos this year. Probably cos my parents gave me twice the amount they usually give for this year. Okay 15 minutes up! I'll blog again when I'm free. I'm like meglecting my blog! Hahha.

2010-02-08T08:59:00.000-08:00

I have dental at 10.30 in the morning tomorrow. How on earth am I gonna drag my lazy ass of bed and reach Clementi by 10.30. Its highly impossible! I'm so clever, I broke my retainers and I snapped one of the rubber band on my braces. Good luck to me tomorrow. The dentist probably gonna be like wtf manxzxz. I'll try to go sleep soon after I blog. I was suppose to wake up early to go Adam's house to cut her hair today. But I ended up waking up super late. So I went Thompson for lunch with Shaunna. Sadly, Isfa wasn't working today so I didn't get to see that monkey! Went grandma's house for dinner which I hardly ate much cos I had very late lunch. Nick just got his liscense today. So he came with Clifton and Lau to pick me and went for prata. I just got home. I'm still so awake, how am I suppose to sleeeep! :( Anyway, if any of you have job recommendations, let me know k. Cos I've stopped working with Frasers. I'm looking for office jobs only. Which pays preferbly 5.50-7/h will be good :) And my room's like super clean now btw. I spent a good 3 and half hours cleaning up. Although it might(probably) still be messy, its dust free! I feel so accomplished ok. Next up I'm gonna start hitting the gym, instead of keep rotting my ass at home. The reunion dinners over the weekend really hit me in the tummy. Loved the lou hei. But I thought the one at some ching chong restaurant was better than the one in Orchard Hotel.. K bye people! I'm missing Ain like some cheebye mothafucka I swear :(

2010-02-03T08:56:00.000-08:00

Hi, its been long! I have an excuse! Cos I'm working now and night shift ends at 10pm. I pretty like my current job (I'm not gonna reveal wheer I work on my blog). The people are all damn nice and friendly :) However, friday is my last day already! I'm quite sad to leave but I'm happy at the same time cos I dont have to work anymore. The only reason why I'm blogging now is cos I'm not going to work tomorrow! Reason simply being : ~~food poisoning~~ I don't feel like going. Ain and I are both skipping work together tomorrow. I'll be going over to her house to play :D I have been literally seeing Ain EVERYDAY for the past month or so. Cos we work at the same place! And we're always together even on our off days. Today is a very special day, MEL'S BIRTHDAY :D Which also means my birthday HAHA! Ain, Isfa, Kim and Mel came to visit me at work. Then we went Lucky Plaza for really really good Ayam Penyet, so fucking spicy cheebye! Lepaked at the park upstairs, then went home. I hate to take public transport now cos its so expensive! I should just cab, like how adam cab everywhere! She sends me home via the train and cabs home. See how spoilt my baby is! Hahah. I miss Adam Hayden, haven't seen her in.. 3 days. Okay I know that sounded pathetic. But it really felt like a month or more :( I'm meeting her on Friday :) The thought of it makes me so excited! And we're going shopping!!! I wrote down my shopping list just now. All the items added up to close to $900. SUGAR DADDY NEEDED HERE OK PLZ! I went CNY shopping with Shay yesterday. But we ended up buying a hair dryer. I know right don't ask me why plz! I dont know.. My eyes are dry already. I need to go rest. And talk to my baby on the phone so I'll miss her less! Bye!

2010-01-17T04:21:00.000-08:00

Sianzxzxz. I'm so sick. I feel like I'm dead actually. My fever's still at 38d :( Cough is recovering but phlegm is all stuck in my chest which causes the air passage to block! One day of work and 2 days of MC! Hahaha. Pls don't visit me at work whoever that knows where I'm working. I look crazy. You know like I just woke up. With my hair and make up undone, wearing an oversized tee. Nobody wanna see me in such state. So don't bother visiting me or what not. Only Ain gets this privilege to see me like that, cos she works 5m away from me :D It's been good working near her cos I get to see her stupid face and hmm, laughing at the aunty selling ba gua! I don't really have much to blog about actually, I'm just bored. My sister just bought 2 tubs of hagen daaz. I'm not suppose to eat cos I'm sick but I don't care :) But I doubt I can taste it anyway. My taste buds off you know. Plain boiled water taste like antibiotics and food smells like fart. I know right, what the hell. Okay I'm missing Melissa Baclay! and Adam Hayden! and Shaunna de Cruz! and Isfa! and Stephanie Megan! and Clare Marie! And I just realized my life is totally dependent on solely girls only! I don't talk to/about guys anymore. And of all the girls that I've mentioned, what do most of them have in common? HMMMM :) I totally lose feeling for guys already.

2010-01-13T06:26:00.001-08:00

I hate liars omg why do they have to lie so much. Is it cos they are deprived in some way or another? I lie, but only when its necessary. I don't do it to my friends just to make myself look like I'm all that. I think its stupid. The only reason why people lie is cos they are insecure about themselves, GROW UP! And what makes it worst is when they lie about utterly ridiculous things that makes it so fucking obvious its a lie -.- Fuck it, anyway, I've been to busy (or rather, lazy) to update my blog lately. I decided to blog tonight cos I won't be able to blog so often anymore as my job starts from tomorrow onwards. I'm soooo lazy! But I'm okay cos I work at the same place as my darling Ain and we can travel and lunch together :) Have been talking and meeting Ain quite a lot lately she's so fucking funny (loser) hehe. Mel too, cos she took a whole week of leave. Just came back from a bar with her and her brother. I've been drinking every night consetively. Either at the pub in bishan park, CHIJMES or at home. My tummy's like wtf big and round. Like a ball ball :) OH, Mel cut her hair and I think, she looks pretty attractive (towards girls only) HAHA I'll upload some hamsom photos of her! My head feels heavy. I don't wanna blog anymore. Gonna pray that all of us get into our dream course and school! For those KPOs out there wondering how many points I got for O's. I wouldn't say I did badly cos it won't be nice to those who did worst. I would say I did well enough to get into any course in any poly. And yes, I'm happy with my grades! Thank god for that :)

2010-01-08T08:19:00.000-08:00

I just cut my hair today. Adam took photos for me as prove against mel. Cos Mel always don't believe when I cut my hair. She'll keep going "no difference, you bluff". Mel's dying for everyone to cut their hair hahah so don't cut :D Went NP and TP with Mel and Kim today. I only went TP for like 15 mins. I didn't walk around at all. So it was kinda waste of time. I went there to meet Isfa and Ain and met like Shirin, Anisa, Vanessa, Nisa and Pearlyn. Left TP and went to tamp to meet Adam for dinner @ popeyes. I ate a bowl of mash potato only cos I had late lunch. And I'm fucking hungry now. Mom's getting food for me otw back :D I'm gonna upload SOME photos now since everyone's complaining that reading my blog is so boring cos there's no pictures. Ben said its like ready newpaper -.- Oh, I'm kinda looking forwad to tomorrow cos I'll be meeting so many people. All my darlings! And supper club at night, Shaunna pls come. I haven't seen you in ages! Hahaha all the best to all IJ girls collecting their results on monday. Especially to the whole of sec fives!! Crosss fingers and toes!

I love you so fucking much Adam Hayden!

2009-12-30T09:37:00.000-08:00

So quickly and 2009 is coming to an end already. I have so much to say and people to thank for. This year has been one of the toughest compared to the rest. I would say this year is the year that I really studied (although I know I didn't give my all, but at least much more than usual). And this is the last year that I will be spending in IJ. The 5 years I spent in IJ, I would say, is the best I can ever ask for. And I know whatever poly/JC/ITE I go to next year, I'll never get the same treatment, ever again. The thought of it upsets me so much, but what can I do or say. I shall not be all draggy and long-winded. So here it is..

GRANDMA/FAMILY: The most important people in my life. The most devoted grandma. The most loving mother. The most capable father. The most caring sister. I love them all, so much.

Melissa Baclay : You have been the most awesome friend anyone can ask for. You give so much without demanding anything back. And you're the first friend that I ever sacrificed so much for too. You really mean the world to me. I don't know how my life would be without you. I love you so much you have no idea. I thank you for everything. I thank god for having you with me. This sounds ridiculously mushy but I'm not shitting you. I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.

Steph : You've been so busy with ur chruch stuff so I haven't really been spending much time with you YET. Hoope to see you on monday and we really need to catch up. Thanks for everything, you've been a great friend. Esp during our N levels period. And how u send me text acting like youre A, comforting me. Supplying me with fruit tips and chocolates. And the list goes on.. All these are not forgotten and will never be. I love you the same!

Ain : The girl that I've been missing most although we just met up recently. You never fail to make me laugh. Like really really you're the funniest/stupidest I can ask for. You make me a happier person. You won't believe I'm saying this cos I never. I'm always bullying you. Thanks for being my partner and tolerating all my SHIT. Literally S H I T. And I love you for that.

Adam Hayden : Thanks for coming into my life and making me happy. There are many thing I'd like to say to you but just not here cos everyone can see it. I really love you and I'm looking forward to many things in future, with you :)

Samantha : My dearest laopoxzxzx. You've been the one that studied with me at ave 4 macs. Brning the midnight oil. Eating black black mee in the market after studying. Doing the stupidest and funniest thing. Going all gaga/upset over whichever malay dude. For all that flaws that made you beautiful, I love you..

Isfa : One of the craziest girl in school. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend since sec 1. The innocent siti into a ISFUCK. And the coconut hair mandy into MANDICK. We practically grew up together! I remember how you cry and almost flooded the room during retreat, and our reccess clubbing. Hahahahaha. I love you monkey!

Kim : You're the one the went through the 5 years with me too! Tell me about it. From all my sports school boys to acsi boys to clubbing boys to currently, girls :/ You've always been there. During trainings, the aunty kat days. Those memories are priceless. I love you kimmy :)

Clifton : You're the sweetest brother to me. I appreciate everything you do. The dinners/lunch/beer/w.../c../wii. So much to thank you for. I love you clifton boy!

Anisa : You changed me! I changed you! We both had a very strong influence towards each other. Althogh we're not that close anymore. We were once fucking tight and did stupid things together. Watched ch 88 and finished the whole tub of marcoroni, promising each other not to tell other how pig we are. Sec 3 clubbing days! Getting me the super huge balloon on my birthday and made me walk around town with it. I love you for everything.

Ben : My amazing cousin thats pretty much similar (as fucked up as) to me. I'm so proud to have you in my life. I thank you for staying up till 5 am to help me with my art and ended up going to school late. I thank you for helping me so much in my art. I love you to the moon and back!

Germaine : Although I think I only met up with you probably less than 5 times this year! You still have a place in my heart. Our primary school days feels like it was just last year. When we were p5. And we made a bet that I'll be taller than u by sec 4. And Now we're both so tall. Although I think you're 1 or 2 cm taller. There's to many things to be listed. But I thank you for being my primary school bestfriend and all the best in your lesbianism. HAHA LOVE YOU.

Jerome/Willie : The both of you idiots. There's nothing much to thank Willie for other than the goos times we had in sec 3 I think? After that it was just hell for me. Thanks Jerome for listening to all my love stories. Giving me advices that don't really work but I do appreciate them. I'm so glad that we're talking again. Love you both the same. Although I'm gonna marry one of the 2 ^^ HAHAHA.

Shaunna : For all the late night calls and text messages that you don't reply! For all the stayovers and outings. And your neverending "wah I tell you my heart ah........" Thanks for coming into my life. I had lots of fun with you around and an experience that I though I'll never have. Hmmm... I love you cheebye!

Kalpana : I don't know how to thank you. Cos I really hate you for all the diabolical things you've done for me. You're incorrigible. For teling Ain that I like her (ofcos I dont) and getting me into a lot other shit. Thanks for improving my accounts by like 4/5 grades. Anf for listening to all my happenings. No you should thank me for being your student. I bring color to your monotonous life. Love you kappy wappy.

I know I missed out many people, I apologise for that. I'm too tired and my eyes are damn dry. You know I love all my friend and I really appreaciate for having ev eryone in my life. Friends or frenemies. You're the ones that taught me how to live and be strong. Have a great year ahead pals :)

2009-12-25T00:40:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY :) I had fun the whole of yesterday... until I got fucking wasted and died. Woke up early to meet Sam for lunch. Went to Novena to meet Isfa and to find Mel at work. Had lunch together :) Isfa's Christmas gift is damn cute and random. I like the undies :) We hung out, went to town to wait for Ain. I was so damn happy to see Ain, its been so long. I've been missing her so much you have no idea. And everytime I eat macs, it gets worst cos I'll be wondering.. Where's that idiot I wanna give her all my soggy shaker fries cos I don't like them. Hahah <3 Chilled/Catched up until dinner time. Ain followed Sam and I to do our nails (christmas color) and dinner. Met Yingxin, Edlyn, Chris and Lenard to celebrate Christmas at night. We initially went to Alcova cos there was some event there yesterday. But holy, the queue was horrendous. So we went to Clarke Quay to drink. Played drinking games and ended up drinking quite a bit. Got damn high/drunk. Honestly, I can hardly remember what happened last night. But I remembered the ADM part clearly. I'm sorry if i scared you! Hahaha. My relatives are outside having steamboat, I shall not anti and go outside and socialise. I'm lazy to upload pictures up in my blog. It all up on Facebook :)

For God loved the world so much that He gave His one and only son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life - John 3:16

2009-12-19T14:53:00.001-08:00

I'm now in the coach on the way back to Singapore. Everybody, like seriously everybody in the bus is sleeping. Except for the bus driver and myself. I really really miss home. And the my 9 other bears must have missed me. Excluding the green bear (goodluck) that I brought along with me to support my sister. My dearest Shay did well for masters and stepladder today. Just that the other 2 did better in stepladder. Hmm. I'm still thinking of the things I was suppose to go back and buy but I didn't have time. I probably won't see it ever again. I bought a fake LV purse at KL for damn cheap. It's super cute and it's in a heart shape! My mother have been extraordinary weird/funny during this trip. She became so much like me. You know, talking to/disturbing random people around. Laughing at things only WE understand etc. I couldn't stop laughing throughout the trip! So I've been staring out of the window for the past good 20 mins trying to find stars but I end up only seeing a blank sky (with a couple of planes flying pass). I've learnt more to appreciate the fact that I'm a Singaporean and that I live in a hygienic and anti-BO environment :) but cb, singapore doesnt have A&W!!! The coney dog and curly fries was the bomb. I'm kinda looking forward for Milo trip next year to eat A&W ok :( I'm so bored now I really feel like standing up and walk around the bus. Fml manz. I miss Grandma and Paps. I miss Mel. I miss Shaunna. I miss Ah Sam. I miss Ben. I miss Clare. I miss Ain. I miss Adam. I miss Isfa. I miss Kim. All and every single one of my friends! You shouldn't read this post at all. It's a waste of your time. HAHA

She's so sexy so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me.
My L-O-V-E oooh my L-O-V-E
<3

2009-12-17T02:11:00.000-08:00

Okay I just got back to the hotel. I just bought 2 pair of jeans and a shoe. The jeans I bought were both one size smaller. I'm using that as motivation to lose weight :D Shay didn't bowl that well today. Let's hope that she'll do better tomorrow :) I love shopping with mom cos she pays for everything. But then again, so much restriction! And it's was difficult cos I had to control my colorful language. She's so funny. She's being overly cautious by coming up with ways how people would plan to rob/rape/kidnap us. She comes up with plans that you'll never hear of. It's just so hilarious omfg. Okay I'm going for massage now with mom. I miss my friends :( miss me? I miss grandma.

2009-12-15T10:09:00.001-08:00

HI. I haven't finish packing for Milo yet. I'm only halfway through and I'm left with approximately 5 hours before I board the bus. I had only a couple of hours of sleep last night. And whenever I don't get my 9 hours of beauty sleep I'll end up you know, talking nonsense the whole of the next day. I woke up early this morning to meet Jerome for lunch. (You better be touched, look at the things I do and sacrifice for you) I went home straight after lunch, wanted to catch up on my sleep but I ended up webcaming with ADM until I left for grandma's house for dinner. Met Shaunna after dinner and went for second round indian rojak at jln kayu. Yay, love Shaunna very much yo! Last night was fun too. Mel and I went Haji to shisha after her work. Itz been long sicne we last hung out. We got so high over ~~nothing~~ each other. Love love love melly baby! BTW, MEL'S A BUNG THAT FORGOT TO CUT HER HAIR ^^ ADM and her bestfriend came down to join us for a while too. Loved the company :) Yay I'm so happy. I'm like loving/liking everyone. I'm in the mood for loooooove baby. Okay this is what happens when I don't have enogh hours of sleep okay. I just go on and on without knowing what I'm actually talking about. I'm gonna continue packing and sleep for like 2 hours before I leave. Peace out everybody. Since I'm in a very ily mood, before I forget. I LOVE YOU BEN TAN. VERY VERY VERY MUCH. AND STOP BEING SO UNHAPPY ABOUT IT OKAY. 1314!

2009-12-13T11:06:00.000-08:00

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2009-12-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling damn shag now, just came back from a jog with my dad! I did 100 sit ups at the park! I'm gonna ache like shit tomorrow man. I went to town today. Was walking around the new shopping center at somerset, 303. I'm quite surprised that they have zara, F21 and all there. So I shopped till I forgot I was suppose to meet my parents for dinner. Before that, Adam and I watched New Moon. It wasn't as bad as what people claim it was. But the ending was stupid, that I can't deny.. Adam's damnnn sweeeeet! ^^ Had really really good food for dinner with my parents. I ate so much I could still feel my tummy bloated! Last night's buffet at iforgotthehotel'sname was super yummy too! I'm meeting Kalpana at Novena tomorrow for lunch. I'm bringing her to surprise Mel at work. I'm quite certain that Mel's asleep already, so don't tell her, it still will be a surprise although I put it up on my blog. Mel and I never fail to play the "dress up" game. So tomorrow she's gonna dress like a butch, says she. (but when she don't "dress up", she look like lian ^^) And I'm gonna dress like her BRO. Hehe. And if miraculously I wake up early, I'll head to my club to swim and sauna. Which is highly unlikely I'll be waking up early. Hehe ^^ I'll be going home after that, for dinner at grandma's, and I'll meet my darling Melissa Baclay again after work. Monday night, not so happening. Hahaha I can't wait to tell Kalpz and Mel whats been happening ;) I better pack, I'll be leaving for milo in no time! Time to shop at sunway <3 I hope TODS will be having sale!!

2009-12-07T12:32:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry for being too emotional in my previous post! I'm fine, totally. Thanks for those of you who bothered asking. It's not that I don't wanna say but I just can't. This is something that I can open up to an outsider much easier than someone whom I'm close to. I know it sucks. You know, like swearing in front of others but not your parents kinda thing. Anyway, I went to my dentist today to get my retainers fixed cos I broke it again. This s my second time breaking it btw. The dentist said he's gonna insert 6 brackets on my tooth the next appointment. I'm still considering whether to do it or not cos braces are fucking ugly. Anything but braces! The plates I'm wearing now kinda pushed my teeth out but there are like big gaps in between. So the braces would be required to align them. I spoke to my grandma about it. She told me to just go for it, its gonna be 2 years only anyway. Aahhh, I dont know/want :( Oh and I met Willie tonight after dinner for a while. Catched up for a bit since he just came back! Dad picked me up from his place and we got 2 tubs of hagen daaz on the way back, yummy! And just, like 2 hours ago, Shay and I drove out to thomsom for ba chor mee. I'm so bloated now omg! I'm actually blogging now while waited for L word to load. Okay bye! Can't wait to see Melissa tomoorrow <3

2009-12-04T13:09:00.000-08:00

Too many things have been happening now in my life and I just need somebody/something to talk to, to seek advice from. I have scandals from this side that I can't leak to the other and from the other that I can't leak to this. It is so difficult and tiring that i dont feel like seeing anybody. And you know what, I'm gonna be honest now that I've been a real bitch for the past week. I know what I'm doing isn't right. I'm not only fucking up one relationship. I'm not gonna say how many or who, but I'm certain that I'm going to hell. I'm gonna create an lj and just spam everything that I can't express here in there. How I feel towards the opposite sex, my opinion towards lesbian, relationship and other explicit issues that's been bugging me so badly recently. And I know I should so start a book right. I mean all my close friends keep telling me that I shoould start compiling all my stupid happenings and I might just earn a living through that. Naaiise, maybe I should stop dreaming. Back to my life. I think my mom's happy that I haven't really been going out late at night for this week. Although I'm thinking of zouk/wavehouse/butterfact tomorrow! But I'm probably gonna be lazy AGAIN, and stay home to watch L word. I'm so addicted you have no idea! I was watching L word till 7am yesterday(today). I would most likely continue after I'm done blogging. It's 5.26am now btw. So I recently got a job from Recruit Express. I got fired before I even get the job cos I told them I'll be away for 10 days in Europe. I got a call from another agency (I forgot the name) and they offered a better pay and a preferred location too, yay! They sent in my resume, I hope I get short listed (cross fingers!).

You have no fucking idea how I'm feeling now. Is this love..? Should I, or should I not?

2009-12-01T09:32:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody I'm finally 17! I'm still young (and illegal to do many things, ~~fuckit~~)! :) Thanks to everyone that wished me a Happy Birthday. Yes indeed I had a HAPPY birthday but also a big hole in my pocket. I spent many hundreds of dollars today. I don't even dare to count cos I'll end up with a heart attack! I bought the most redundant things today. Things like an umbrella. Edlyn convinced me to buy the GUCCI wallet and yes I did. When I walked out of the shop I was like "what did I just do?" I just changed to a brand new Burberry wallet 2 weeks ago FTW. Bought a dress and a top and placed a deposit for a Ferragamo shoe. I really thought I was insane today. God bless my wallet TQ :( After doing all that shopping with Edlyn, I met Mel for dinner and Kbox. I hope Mel don't upload the videos of me singing the Aerosmith song, embarrassing much! And now I just got home, should be going out to meet another friend for a while later. I'm losing track of time. I NEED to update my resume soon and find a job its December already!!! And I miss Shaunna so fuckin' much :( Its only been 16 hours!

2009-11-28T10:32:00.000-08:00

I don't feeel very wordy now so I'm gonna make this post short. I don't know what to blog about. Today could have been much better if I had a good extra 5 hours of sleep cos I only had 3 last night. I got home at 4+, was on the line with Shaunna until I have no idea what time I fell asleep. Last night wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. Went down to Supperclub with Rex, hung out with munkie and clique. A lot of my friends came down, they were at all different direction from my view on the dancefloor. Everything went well until when the fight started and Roch was involved. Jesus, I was so brave I wiped the blood off his head! Today was basically Family Day. Went to club to attend the members' lunch. Omg there was a snake there and i fucking held it. I went there and ask the guy if I can touch it. He just carried the fucking snake and put it over my shoulders. I almost died, it was so heavy you have no idea! After lunch, we went to watch my sister bowl masters (not too good). Then we went for Tan Family Gathering '09. It was hilarious seeing those kids sing and play hehe ^^ Okay I have no idea what I'm blogging about ok. I'm like half asleep already. Btw, the new O.P.I MATTE colors are extremely sexaye. It makes you go BOOMZ!

2009-11-25T06:48:00.000-08:00

Herrow, omg I can't even type properly cos my nails are so long! Sorry if there's typo! ^^ Shit Mel just departed about an hour ago, Steph's at Chiangrai and Shaunna's leaving soon too! And when they all come back, I'll be leaving! ): And don't know for what dog reason, Edlyn's in JB now. My mom's extremely upset at me for coming home in the morning almost everyday recently. I mean, I stay home in the day to spend time with grandma and leave home almost mid night cos they're sleeping. So this way, I get the best of both worlds hahahahaha. Maybe I shouldn't be living a life of a 20 years old. Like steph said, I'm illegally legal. NVM! So anyway anyway, today's been damn tiring day for me. I walked all around town from one end to the other. No wait, my day started of having lunch with Ain at TP. Omg miss her man, haven't seen her like in a week! It was like a partner's day out :) We wanted to wear school U and bring umbrella and do what we usually do after school. INSANE! Headed to town after that to meet Jerome for a bit and then Shaunna. Was supposed to have dinner with my sister but she did well for her first MQ (congratz jie!) so I couldn't make it to OCC in time (I'm cutting the long story short). So like, I just met Shaunna for dinner. I bought a bag from CHE2, I like it very much!! Its like pink and orange, and so cheap! They were having 80% sale so I got it for only 62 bucks only hehe! Okay I'm too lazy to blog anymore, I shall upload a few pictures otherwise my blog's damn boring! :)

2009-11-18T07:17:00.001-08:00

I'm missing all my friends like fuck ok. I know this sound so ridiculous cos I left Singapore less than 24 hours ago but it feels like it's been a week. I should think this is homesick? Or perhaps I'm just a bit too bored here. I did my hair, nails, massage and shopping all in a day so I'm left with nothing to do tomorrow. I guess this is what happens when you're here with mom and grandma. I'm sitting at starbucks now, using their wireless to catch up with my friends. Oh and prom was great! Loved the food and everything. Actually, more of the food, the pudding that's in a shape of a koi. Hehe ^^ I'll upload the pictures as soon as I get back. Everyone looked so gorgeous! I didn't like my make up at all! It was so thick, I looked like a ghost. Don't laugh when you see them on facebook! I think our class had full attendance for once? Haha! Can't believe we graduated already. I DONT WANNA LEAVE IJ :'( it's the bestest school ever I swear. Although there are a handful of lians and minas that came in and screwed the school's name. It's really a good school, please send ur daughters to IJ otherwise you'll regret. Omg ok I shall stop. And yes, I'm THAT bored okay. I shall go back on facebook my mom wants me back in the hotel by 12. Not much time left!

2009-11-11T23:42:00.001-08:00

Yessss, I'm finally seriously enjoying my holiday! And of course, I'm feeling the hole in my pocket getting bigger each night :( i'm gonna be spending so much for the next few nights! Drinking @ gardens tonight, Powerhouse on Friday night, Supperclub on Saturday night, Zirca on Monday night, Prom on Tuesday night, Genting on Wednesday, and the list goes on. How am I suppose to have time for a job? I'm too lazy to update my resume and shit. I MUST earn some money before I go Europe. And I might be carried forward to early Jan, so that leaves me with just December to work! In the meantime, I'm just gonna party and I'll settle the issue after I come back from Genting. Oh yes, stephie's birthday dinner (part 2) will be uploaded on FB as soon as mel decides to uplaod them, coughs. Jennifer's body is NOT a fucking comedy btw! The ending was stupid. Watched it with Steph and Mel last night. Then we met Shaunna and went over to Mel's place to lepak. Actually, we did a lot more than just lepak. Thank Shaunna for being the photographer of the night :)

2009-11-06T19:03:00.000-08:00

Whats up next? PARTY!!!! O's has finally (unofficially) ended! I'm only left with MCQ and fing chinese paper which I'm gonna flunk :/ Those of you that consistently check my blog for updates, I'm sorry! I know how it feels, cos there's like this 2 blogs that I bookmarked it and I get damn dulan when they don't update. Hehe. I felt the papers this final exam was quite general, I managed it well except for Social Studies which I'm definately gonna get an F9 for. How unlucky can someone be seriously. I only studied Venice and Healthcare and both didn't come out. So my 13m question was like about 4-5 sentences ~~long~~ short. FML. Thankfully Geography was still manageable. I'm quite certain that I'm gonna screw chinese up too. To those 4N people, those who wants books/notes (esp for accounts), I've got really good ones I can pass down. The rest shall then be fed to my dustbin. Thats one of the things that is bugging me. Unless you've been to my room, you wont understand how hard it is to get onto my bed from the door cos notes, books, files, papers, are all over the floor. And its TERRIBLE really. Next up, is to find a job that pays as well and as slack as my NTU alumni job :) Time to earn lots and lots of $$ for me to go Europe and shop! :D Omg I'm shooooo eggcited for the trip! Another is, what should I do for my birthday? 1) Book a chalet and make it a birthday cum class gathering. 2) Go to HK disneyland! 3) Spend it with my family 4) Shopping with my 2 favouritest girl in the whole damn world. 5) Celebrate it in a club (which is highly unlikely, its so unmeaningful!) I have no idea, what should I do ?? Okay enough said, lunch is ready! I'm gonna eat then go Beuty Box to choose matching makeup+hair with my dress. I dont know how I'm gonna survive the day. I only had 3 hours of sleep cos was up at PF's playing mahjong, super duper shag! And I'm still going st james tonight. How? Im might just die. Ok pictures up on fb soon!
xoxo,

2009-10-05T21:42:00.001-07:00

Dear lord,
Please stand before me to guide me
Behind me to support me
& beside me to walk with me
Amen.

2009-09-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

I am the stupidest fool ever. I forgot to bring books to grandma's house today so I'm gonna spend my whole afternoon rotting away. And thats the reason why I'm blogging at this point in time.. So anyway, the jam packed schedule of tuition and exams that has been coming up endlessly, have really squeezed out every bit of juice in my brain. Nonetheless, I still DO lead a very happening life cos I just love having dramamama (doesn't mean its a bad thing though).

Sometimes when I lie in bed and think, I find it rather ironic how time passes by so quickly without even realizing. I mean, yesterday felt like 2007, the first day of school at the old IJ kinda thing. And today, I'm in the midst of my prelims, getting ready to take my O's and to graduate from CHIJ. Holy! This is not funny really! I don't wanna graduate! ):

However, I am extreeeeemely eggcited for O's to end. I have plenty of parties and activities planned already whoo! :D Can't wait. I wanna go Bangkok and Hongkong to shop(hopefully with mel, ben, steph or/and sam)! And then to Europe with my family! OMG so excited!! :) But for now, I neeeed to mug hard man. Accounts paper today was quite manageable I daresay. The rest which were last week, I can't really remember haha. But all were pretty general I guess. I'm left with chinese and art(which I'm gonna fall sick on that day=mc). Goodluck for O's to all the graduating students from IJ esp. the sec 5s!!

I'm going to take a short nap now! I'm gonna dream of some hot guy. No, actually just Justin Bieber :D

Last week in Social House on the dancefloor:
Jen: We like O's over already sia.
Man: Eh O's over already uh?
Sam: I think so..
Man: Eh fuck la we in the midst of prelim can!!

2009-08-15T10:26:00.000-07:00

Yesss I'm finally blogging again. I hardly have any happenings these days cos all I do is study, tuition, eat and sleep. However I have an issue with sleeping nowadays. I've been sleeping at 4+am evey night. Not cos I was up doing something but cos I think I'm suffering from severe insomnia which is causing me to look like a zombie in the day. And the reason for my insomnia is most probably due to stress and its none other than Sam Lim's fault HATE HIM :D And yes, O level submission for art is due on the 31st this month. Dear me, its impossible!

2009-08-05T07:21:00.001-07:00

Ogay so tomorrow is the last day of the 3 days MC I'm given. Lots of things to complete when I go back to school next week. Accounts test, Maths test, Physics test, Mock Science Pract etc. At least I've got Mel to do with me cos she's "sick" also. Hopefully she doesn't go school tomorrow too yay :) I haven't been studying much these 2 days. Have been spending the time on facebook and I was hooked only clicknetwork.tv just a moment ago. I spent a good 3 hours watching the videos! My eyes are hurting now. I shall go rest my eyes for a bit then attempt to study. Hmm tomorrow is probably gonna be dedicated to art! fml muchh.

2009-07-31T10:28:00.000-07:00

HELLO YELLOW FELLOWZXZX. I am so friggin' tired! School ended at 6.30pm today gzzz.my eyes are half shut already although I know I sound so enthusiastic (don't ask why lol-y ^^) Had dinner with my dearest beloved parents then met kevin at bishan to "study". We were not studying, we were "studying". Should have stayed home to watch tv and rest! So anw, I ate 2 packets of shaker fries consecutively. I think my brain wasn't working at that point in time. Usually I'd be like "junk food much!" but today, I felt like a crystal fong really. I felt really bad so I came home and started working out hardcore. Kkkkk, I'm gonna sleep. Supper club tomorrow night with my baby :) Goodnite everybody!! I want anybody anybody but you! *claps*

2009-07-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

Oh god, monday bluezzzzzz ): Slept pretty late last night. Was busy re-arranging my art boards! I did maths the whole of today! All the formulas are forced into my tiny brain, ouch. And this was what happened.

Man:"Pa you know my brain is like a 12GB ipod.. Its only left with 0.0001GB, can't put in anymore songs."

Father:"Huh you got brains meh?"

So anyways, I'm very proud to say that my room is now clean and dustfree! *wink* I spent the whole of yesterday cleaning up. Who wants to come my house and see? Hahahah. My terribly sensitive nose is still running though. I just bought this aroma shit from crabtree&evelyn that smells like heaven. It suppose to help improve my sinus but it doesn't seem to be working. I don't know why I'm blogging about that. I have a whole lot of random stuff in my mind ready to blog about but I'm not gonna start. Cos firstly, it redundant. Secondly, its too time consuming. I'd rather do my art/study for accoutns test tomorrow. Hahaha. Okay this is an extremely meaningless post. If you're reading this, you just wasted 5 mins of your life.

neat right!!

2009-07-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Art is seriously stressing the fuck out of me! I would drop art but unfortunately its already too late. So, lucky you 10 people who dropped art. Mr lim's being some mad dog and its not even funny anymore. He spoils my day. The sight of him bothers me very much, it just ruins my day. Everytime after his lessons, everything will then not feel/seem right and I get grumpy over the littlest thing! I'll be staying back for art tomorrow after the Pass-It-On programme. 6 boards next week :/ So many tuitions, so much hw, FML much! Ohwells I'm only left with 3 more months so stop complaining mandy! I shall go start on my final layout so atleast I have something to refer to when I work on my final piece tomorrow. Had dinner with Kalpana and Andrew earlier. Andrew made me feel better though. He never fail to amuse me with the unbelievably retarded things he does. However, Kalpana gave me like 1 whole paper to do for homework. Someone please tell me how, how am I suppose to complete so much work! FMLseriously )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

2009-07-17T11:08:00.000-07:00

I'm honestly deprived of sleep! Ben called me at 130am last night. It was hilarious how that cousin of mine told me all about the 2 new girls he met at work and how he screwed up the situation so bad. He went on and on about it for 2 solid hours. Which then allow me to officially sleep at 330am. I received a call from andrew at 5. We were suppose to get up early to get started with some work before we go to school, but obviously we didn't. Which means, I only had 1 and a half hours of sleep last night. Which clearly explains why I only reported to school at 10 this morning. School was extremely tiresome for me (and those with pass-it-on programme). Today dragged till 445pm! I rushed home to wash up and change to meet Germaine for dinner in town. (today is the first time i stepped into orchard in about a month btw!) Afterwhich, I met ben and his clique for Harry Potter at 1045pm. Feels good to see him and his friends again after many weeks of not talking mannzz :) I shall not reveal anything about Harry Potter. Go watch it yourself! Haha. Okay I better go sleep soon. I have tuition in the noon tomorrow and Clare's confirmation in the evening followed by party at night! Gonna have a long day ahead tomorrow. Shagggg! My sister is flying off to Las Vegas in 4 hours time. All the best for your games!

2009-07-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to feel the pressure and annoyance that studying have brought upon. I only had 4 pathetic hours of sleep last night. I felt like a zombie in school today. Met stupid andrew after school today. Was at tuition with him and kalpana till about 7 when mom and dad came to pick me up for dinner. I've been meeting andrew almost everyday since grandma's house is under renovation and I can't go there for dinner. Anyway, I have a fuck lot of art to complete. Mr lim is demanding for 4 boards of art by tomorrow. I'm planning to stay up to do art tonight until I completehat 4-5 boards. Which also means that I'm prolly gonna be awake till earliest 4am next morning. I might be late for school tomorrow but I'm definately going. No way I'm gonna skip maths test! (although I'm not very confident in that topic I still hope I do well) K, I better go get started with my art nowww.

MELISSA BACLAY & SAMANTHA SHUM. Please hurry recover IMYIMYIMYa'll.

2009-07-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

Hi babehz. I was so hardworking today. Miss yip just changed all our seating arrangments and now I'm finally paying attention in class without distractions from steph/mel. No actually I'm the one thats distracting them with my neverending stories :P I think I can start writing my own book since my stories captivates eveybody. Hahaha! Mr Lim demanded for our 2 boards of art by the next art lesson. I'm rushing my Artist Reference and Introduction so bad, so is steph, and the class. Oh, Steph got me pencil ice cream today <3 Okay my parents are rushing me already. We're going club now. Yesss dad's back yay :) Anyway Samantha Shum, lets go study soon! Call me when you see this. I've got lots to tell you. And Andrew Yeo also! Study, stop being a baby! Clare-Marie, call me! Willie, see you in september biiiiiaaaattchhh!

2009-07-03T22:11:00.000-07:00

I just created a Michael Jackson playlist in my iTunes and I can't stop listening to it ): <3 MJ ): I was a good girl last night I got home at 9. I wanted to study but I got hooked on to facebook. That practically happens everyday ohwells. Watched Ghost of Girlfriend's Past last night with andrew. The kind of show that any girl would watch. Not a least bit like terminator, transformers, x-men or whatever shit action shows that girls don't usually understand. I'll rate the show 4.5 popcorn! :) I know I keep repeating that I need to study but I'm not even starting yet! I need MOTIVATION. And furthermore, too many things is happening presently. Anything might just happen. I can't seem to control myself anymore. I've never felt this way before and I'm scared ):

2009-07-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

I skipped school today without an mc i'm so dead! But I really wasn't feeling well in the morning so I guess that isn't so bad! Cos even if I went to school, I'll get sent back after temp taking (you realize I'm just trying to convince myself ) Anyway I feel much more productive when I skip school cos I'll feel guilty and I'll study. I'm proud of myself that I sat at bishan library and studied from 2-7.30. Eh no tehnically only until 4.30 when stupid andrew came. Never ever ever in your life study with andrew, no joke he's a bum! I should really get back on track asap! ): I NEED to start on my final piece for art and complete 3 more bio chapterz latest by next week nb. I heard today's maths test is fucking hard oh no. And the worst thing is, shums texted and told me that 90% of people that did pao zhang pao dao for chinese o level failed. So the probability of me retaking is very high. FMLzxzxzxzx!@$%^&**&~!@#$%^&%$#@!~

2009-06-27T05:11:00.000-07:00

One whole month of june is coming to an end. What have I completed? Sleep, eat, shop, tv, facebook, everythhing but study :S But I'm pleased to know that mel is also only on board 5 (same as me). IMYIMYIMY ): Lots of things to update steph and mel when school reopens heh. :) I'm gonna stay home the whole day tomorrow to do some last minute work and also hopefully, tidy up my extremely untidy room before the new term starts. No more time to waste mandy, time to start mugging! All the wayyyy.

2009-06-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

Busy busy busy busy. I don't even have time to go back to school for art. Hopefully I'll be able to squeeeze out a few hours from my tight schedule to go back for art. I need to start studying nowwwwww. So my dearest beloved friendz, please don't ask me out this week unless you wanna study. And when I say study means, really really study(not bitching TYVM, althought I love to).

Spent the whole day today at Audrey'z. We did some %$#$^* photoshoot. Checked some guys out on facebook and went for a swim. Lepaked the whole day at her cozy cozy house! After which, I went to meet the ah beng for a bit and headed home! My aircon's being some crazy bitch I swear. Sooooo coooooooooooooold and its 25 degrees. Last night was 17 degrees and I was sweating. I swear its not me.

I miss Clare-Marie Alexis Koh
I miss Melissa Baclay
I miss Stephanie Anthony Ashton Megan Theres
I miss Isfa
I miss Ain
I miss a hell lot of people mannnn ):
& most imptly, I saw your fb and I just wanna let you know that I've been waiting for your call/msg. I've been trying but my ego is holding me back. I know many many MANY months have past, and I realised we're still hanging in there. I'm sorry baby, call me ok? We NEED to talk. Loved you, still love you darling ♥

2009-06-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

I went to the market with sam shums for lunch yesterday. I've never been to the market for years and little did I know I'll be going there with shums. And how we spent 30 mins finding our way to each other from blk 220 to blk 209. How we got lost trying to find where the fuck block 215(MELTZ) is. How we searched our way to the market under the hot sun. How we were debating if that cute guy sitting under the void deck is malay or indian. Seriously, it was extremely comical. Love shums <3
I met/bumped into so many people last night. The night started off from cuscaden followed by zouk, spice, rebel, lunar and ended at zirca. Fun :) I had fun :)

2009-06-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

I feel very guilty for not studying but partying all day long. I'm left with at least 6 more maths papers to complete! And that stupid kalpana is taking up too much of my holiday! So I concluded that, I MUST at least complete 3 more maths papers otherwise I will not go mambo this wed. But I'm proud that I studied the whole afternoon yesterday before I went out at night. I first went east coast to meet the CLB ah beng from pasir ris. Lepak a bit by the beach with the ah beng then I teleport down to Coasta Sands to find Clare-Marie Koh. Then we ended up at mimosa park again. But this time we had teresa along :) I have been hanging out so much with the Kohs lately that I feel like I'm one of them. Haha! Okay I shall go do the OLevelGuru(Physics).

<3

2009-06-10T06:32:00.000-07:00

I finally did/went a few of the many things/places i've been wanting to do/go for a long time. I finally went to the zoo in like gazillion years cos all my friends said its smelly and disgusting and nobody wanted to go with me. ): Secondly, I'm spending more time with grandma. Which was one of my new year's resolution too. Thirdly, I certainly have progress in my art thanks to Ben :D And a few more issues that I wouldn't wanna bring up here where the public might just come across.

Anw, I've been hanging out so often with my CMK now that it feels weird when I don't see or smell her around. Goodness the night that we tonned in her park was priceless seriously. We were talking about everything anything and bitching about the world :D I'm too lazy to blog about every little detail. Her blog says most of them,i think its www.dothesquaredance.blogspot.com. Oh and not forgetting Ben too, so often haha.

But you know, I'm starting to worry for my studies cos I haven't started studying anything at all and everyday is passing by so quickly. I shall be reasonably strict towards myself and start studying from next week onwards but nothing's gonna stop me from partying. I'll study hard and play equally hard too. Sounds like thats it! :)

~~I need more time baby~~

2009-06-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

I fucking hate you. I know hate is a strong word. But somehow I feel that it isn't strong enough. This is getting crazy you don't even have Respect for your own creator. Not even a single bit of respect. I can promise that I never got beaten in my life so bad that my skin is now tore open. So what if you're fucking big. That doesnt give you the right to do whatever you did. Your attitude is awfully disgusting. Its not that she's not supporting you, just that the things you said are seriously honestly genuinely unbelievably ridiculous! I'm sorry I couldn't take it anymore and I revealed what you dared me to. The previous few times I tried so hard to keep it cos I didn't wanna get you into shit. But you fucking don't deserve to be having all these now. I'm sorry but I just ruined your "happily ever after". And lastly, if you think that violence is the best way of boosting your ego in your weirdass philosophy, god bless you. FYL much.

2009-06-01T05:16:00.001-07:00

I couldn't sleep last night. It was terrible. I was too worried for today's chinese paper. But its over already anyway! :) I thought I did well for paper 1 except that I didn't have enough time to complete my pao zhang pao dao. So for that, I hope I don't fail. Still hoping for a B3 yo. My weekend was spent having 3 hours of chinese tuition on each individual day. It felt like I was having a night mare. But anyway at least I got the chance to party saturday night away :) I know it doesn't sound appropriate to party when chinese paper was in 2 days time. I just had to haha. So for this week, I'll be having another 4 days of intensive which I predict will not be intensive. And then, time to party baby! :D But of course definately I got to study hard on the other hand. I really will. Ben said he'll help me with my art. Nice to have a lasalle boy to help with prep boards. hehe. Alright I'm gonna go play with koala for a bit then sleep. My tortoise just died. Hahaha.

2009-05-26T05:14:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

This week have been really stagnant. I haven't done anything productive yet. Chinese O's is in 10 days time and lucky me managed to find a impromtu tutor thats willing to teach me! :) I shouldn't even have went to school on thursday. It was a waste of time. I should have stayed home to watch America Idol like those peanut ponners. We had like, nice, Game Day. I fell ill and spent half the time in the sick bay. My gastric problem's getting from bad to worst. I swear something bad's gonna happen if I don't recover soon.

IJ Fiesta today was overwhelming. Everyone was everywhere! Everything was extremely overpriced. I only enjoyed the Candy House, Bungee thingy and helping out at the class stall. The candy house. Mel, Stef & I nicely grabbed a huge mountain of sweets heh heh heh heh. The pekchures will be up on fb soonz. So will the bungee race video. It was so hilarious. I felt like as if I was 3 again! I honestly hope mel don't upload the very very horribly subdued video that we took in macs! Shhhhhhhh.

Anyway, I'm some bloody broke ass shit now. I just bought a new school bag. I am so broke that I don't even have money to go to the salon to wash my hair.

2009-05-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

School today was a total waste of time! The weather was damn shiok to sleep also! I only collected 3 papers. Did badly like what I have already expected. Kalpana went crazy after she found out that I only had 59 for accounts. That is like 16 marks away from A1 ): Anyway had lunch with MY clare at mcs after school. The money that I've saved for a new wallet is gonna be used to buy a new phone cos I lost mine. When will I ever get my miumiu ): Probably like never, if Im gonna keep losing things. I luv my CMK.

I MISS MELISSA BACLAY ):
Don't you just love me, mel? Haha get well soon dear! <3

2009-05-17T02:58:00.000-07:00

I was talking to MY clare about how I enjoyed my 5 days holiday to the fullest. Wenesday was actually not a holiday. But cos I fell ill, I had no choice but to skip my art paper (very unwillingly). Ho ho ho. I haven't not touch a book for so mandy days eversince march. Thursday was pizza hut & karaoke with kristel and kawai at sicc. Friday I went to the beach with MY dearest CMK. Loove it baby! We finally caught up with each other's life. Went to Gotham afterthat with like a lot of people. Most of them there were bowler cos it was keith's birthday! Got home really late and spent the day sleeping. Saturday night was great too! Had like clifton's birthday party. Didn't expect that it would actually turn out to be so fun :) Got home at 730 in the morning. My dark circle serriously makes me look like a zombie. And tonight will be having barbeque at kawai's place. My gastric has been bothering me quite a lot lately. I hope I don't die. I mean like, you get what I mean,

2009-05-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

2009-05-08T09:14:00.000-07:00

HI :) Omg I am so bored. I don't feel like studying cos I feel like as if exams are over. I'm left only with physics and art. Sorry to those that still come to my blog regularly. My life have not been happening recently. Just lots of studying but I still don't think I'll do well for this Mid Years. Only Biology and Accounts was easy. Yes I balanced! :) So anyways Sam, Jen and I have been really on recently! I felt so much better after telling them all the crap thats been happening. Thanks girls. I really had very very very much fun with yall <3

2009-04-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

I'm so horribly tired. I'm tired of exams! I dazed through all my papers today. One was chinese, which without fail, I'll get a F9. I rushed home after my ss paper to wash up and met grandma and aunt for a super toothsome dinner at the soup restaurant. Followed by karaoke with my mum's side. I feel really bad cos grandma bought me the whole set of Nicole Hiller cosmetics which I just realised that it cost more than chanel products. Its very late already and my brain isn't working so Im going to sleep. Gotta wake up early for tuition tomorrow. And hopefully I could squeeeeze out an hour or so out of my tight schedule to watch 17 again. Heh. Goodnight babyz.

2009-04-21T04:49:00.000-07:00

I'm finally home from a long day today! School ended early today at 1. It was funny how the whole group of us made our way down to novena for B & J's free cone day! There were prolly about 20 of us. I went back to school as soon as I got my 2nd cone heh! Back to school to meet my melissa baclay to do art! Did not really do much, just completed 2 paintings that was halfway done. I wanted to complete all my 6 boards by today so I can focus on my other subjs for mid years but obviously I didn't manage to. Hopefully I'll get most of them done during the 3 periods of art tomorrow!
I have been really really really busy studying. Yes, studying. One tuition after another. I never studied so hard for an exam before but I still feel that I will do badly for the upcoming papers. The gap between Ns and Os is really huge! I'm almost clueless at all about ss. I've only been focusing on Maths, Accounts and Physics. Not even bio and geog anymore. One more week to mid years! 6 more weeks to chinese O levels! Omg omg FML.
In that case, I will only start blogging again after MYEs. Wish me all the best :)
Oh! One of our classmates got infected with TB so our whole class will have to take a jab this coming fri ):

2009-04-15T08:48:00.000-07:00

i'ma big girl. DONT use violence against me. it HURTS, DEEP down inside.

2009-04-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

I have plenty to blog about but I can't recall them all, I'll try! Firstly, 2.4 is finally over wohoo! I passed it surprisingly! Secondly, midyears are in 2 weeks time. I don't think there's sufficient time to finish studying. 40% of final art piece is to be handed in for mid years too. I haven't even complete my prep boards maybe! ): (Stace if you're reading this, I really really really need your help badly) Thirdly, I've got plenty of homework to do. I'm too lazy to get started with them. I can't think of anything else to blog about. I shall go do some hw! I didn't go to school today btw. Haha.

2009-04-05T00:43:00.001-07:00

Last night, mel and I went jogging and we brilliantly, decided to prawn. Okay expected, mel and I didn't manage to catch a single prawn at all. So we waited for the guys to come to take over. Geez, they caught so many prawns! Mel and I were just busy barbequeing and eating haha sweet :)

2009-04-05T00:34:00.000-07:00

Why do you give so much attention to her?
Why is she always your priority?
Why am I always after her?
Does she really mean so much to you?
Even after all the lies?

):

2009-03-28T08:25:00.000-07:00

Its been quite awhile since I came back from KL and even a longer while since I last updated. I don't know where to start blogging for cos I've lost track of where I stopped. Generally, I feel more hardworking nowadays cos I started tuition and self study. I'm still trying (just trying) to discipline myself during the weekends to spend some time with my family and on art. Art submission of 6 boards are due in 2 weeks time and MYEs are in less than a months time! geez. Went prawning and fish spa + foot reflexology last night with kristel oh and shay! The prawns were freaking nice except the fact that we caught a cancer prawn. Hahaha. Got home at 3am, was so tired. Basically I just spent the whole of today with my mom cos dad's away and she's lonely. Went club to gym, had dinner at HK cafe (ate hell lot cos I decided to reward myself for going to the gym -.-), shopped around, then headed home. Bought 2 vintage dresses! :)

2009-03-12T07:08:00.000-07:00

Yay all the competitions and tests are finally over! ;) Tomorrow's the last day of school followed by one week break :) I'm so excited. Mel and I was actually planning our time-table for the march holiday in class! Finally got the tix for Disney on Ice on monday night. We bought one of the front seats. Mel can go fit in with the little kids. heh. Then tuesday we're going zoo! I wanna go zouk on wednesday but I'm leaving for KL on thursday morning to support my sister in Malaysia Open. Gonna shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop :) we will be collecting our report books tomorrow :) Wish me luck baby! I think I'ma gonna do best for accounts and worst fot chinese. Haha I better get full marks for today's accounts test or else I need to supply one week of apples for melissa. I'm gonna stop blogging already cos my hand is hurting like a bitch. I hit the wall with my elbow during bio class earlier. I was trying to do ballet turns and I just smash into the wall. Oh shut up. Anyway, bowling and class photo-taking was so fun! ;) Hahah.

2009-03-07T07:37:00.000-08:00

Omg I wasted close to 3 hours watching watchmen. I swear I didn't understand three quarter of the show. Went with yulica and alex. Patrick said its damn good though. Haha. Today's just a very typical saturday. Spent the whole day roaming around town, bumping into people and meeting up with different people. Gonna catch an early movie tmrw morning and dinner with some relatives that came back from sarawak to visit. I'll try to complete my geography notes and accounts homework too! I'm so proud of my sister she qualified for masters :)

2009-03-06T06:54:00.000-08:00

Okay its been a week since I last blogged! Its been a really disorganised and chaotic week. All my tuitions are so impromtu. I messed up my competition days and timings! Clashed with facial and hair appointments! Skipped lotsa lessons! It was just really krazy! Whenever I step into my room I just felt like sleeping and not think of anything at all ): I miss you! ): My weekends are packed! I have no time to do my work. I need someone to help me organize my life. Everything doesnt feel right. I miss my sister, she's far far away in japan now. ): Hope she's bowling well! I miss grandma, haven't seen her today. I miss steph and mel and the school's chicken rice. MmMmm.. :) I miss yulica and clare marie koh. I miss sam! I miss marilyn and rachel! I miss willie! Okay okay I shall not go on. Anw, gonna go bath and sleep asap. So tired of my life! Oh no I'm only 16 and I'm complaining so much. I wanna get married! Hahah. Ohwells. Mr Right will never come back ): But mel did the gamez thing in class and she said I'll end up with him. Hahahah bull shaat! Love you everybody :)

oh yeah anybody wanna buy iPod 2nd Gen 4GB(green)/1st Gen 1GB(white)
i know right, 1GB wtf.

2009-02-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

Just got home for dinner. Only mom and I went out for dinner cos dad's on a job vacation and shay's lazy. Sold my viewty already! It was so funny how I played the mind game with the buyer and manage to raise the price from $300 to $360 :) Hahahaha. Did my brows and face threading this afternoon with sam. Bought a few tops while shopping around. And iron on stickerz haha so pretty! :) Had super good indian food for lunch!
Anisa, Vic, Pearlyn and I went for All American Reject last night. Hahaha luv the lead singer he's so cute! :) Then after which we chilled at the riverside behind zouk for a bit when Anisa and I leftcos her mom needed her to be home and cos I had trg the next morning (this morning). We had fun! :) Lotsa fun + drinking gamez!
Anyway, next week will be a very one for me cos thats when Bdiv, additional tuition & remedial starts. I might not have to time to blog. Haha. I might go and perm my hair too. Should I? ):

(All the pictures are on facebook! I uploaded a lot of super lag pictures since last year too! Go check em out!)

2009-02-25T04:29:00.001-08:00

I am so insanely charmed by a guy today. I can't get my mind of him. And this is fucking hilarious cos if you know who he is, you will just die laughing. Yes steph & mel, the guy I was talking about during practical. I think I just like older guys that has a stable job and drives. :) Anw, school was okay today. We didn't have any "black box chinese class" adventure or iPod gang adventure whatsoever thou. I've been having test the past few days and will still be having test till friday. Gonna go study soon.

2009-02-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

I'm sick again! ): Didn't go to school on friday ): Ritterspot and ferrero rocher waiting for me to eat in the fridge, so tempting. Hahah I haven't open my rittersport steph :) I'm terribly bored at home cos my parents will never allow me to go out unless I recover. There goes my weekend! ): The temperature of my fever have been increasing gradually since friday and now I'm 38.5 D. I hope I recover by tomorrow so that I can go school on monday! I haven't been eating anything other than porridge cos everything seem so tasteless and unappetizing. eek.

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2009-02-14T00:07:00.000-08:00

I'm back from SAC. Its a lot better than what I expected, thank god! Did a lot of worshipping prayers, confessions and learning more about ourselves. Much more about God and about life. The f&b was a lot better this year too! Esp the lunch and dinner cos we had really yummy Thai food prepared by stef's mom :)

We played catching, the blindfold game, Mr. wolf, Virus, Chicky dance yada. I felt like as if my childhood revived haha! The bed room was fortunately rather clean so yeah, better than last year's also! Mel and I had a great time mambo-ing with our backs down till 1am. We came up with our own moves, so freaking retarded! Shall video it down someday hehe.

All in all, I'm pretty much satisfied with the camp. Got lotsa pictures to upload. Gonna put all up on fb. I'm too lazy to upload it on blog. You realise I seldom have pix on my blog anymore.

God bless!

2009-02-11T04:03:00.000-08:00

So many test! On after another gawd! Tomorrow's accounts and social studies ): Oh, and I think I'll do really badly for today's maths test. Its only at the beginning of the year and all these annoying test are already sitting in. I've got a lot to clarify for disposal, can anybody help me? The test is tomorrow! I shall go study some slides then pack my bag for SAC! Hope its gonna be fun this year. Last year's was good thou ;)

2009-02-07T00:38:00.001-08:00

Sorry I've been too busy to blog. Everything's been very good except the fact that willie is leaving on monday ): I should say that school have been quite erratic for the past week. A lot of very unneccessary shit. ClareMarie should know! I went on and on about it to her last night. Haha poor girl. Omg my macs is here, gonna go eat. bye bye.

2009-01-28T04:49:00.000-08:00

Omg I can't believe I'm doing art now. Everytime I rceive a new topic, one thing I hate/suck most is to find Artist Reference. I don't know why but it just seem so difficult to look for one that suit my final piece. Well, I'm doing mix media this year. Which is also my first year doing mix media, I hope I do well. So basically I'm done with Artist Statement but not Reference yet.
This year's self-awareness camp falls on Valentines' Day. Am I suppose to feel happy, or not? Both ways I guess! I shall get started with geog and go sleep. So tired!

Aaaanyywaaay, CNY was awesome. Love the tarts and cookies, sharkfins and abalone! Yum yum :) And of course the gatherings and gamblings!

2009-01-23T20:53:00.000-08:00

I'm blogging now cos I know that I'll be super busy for the next few days doing visiting and what not. Yesterday was very fulfilling. The day started off with mass and then cip. We brought the senior citizen over to our school to attend CNY mass with us and had tea with them. :) Followed by shopping the whole day away with edlyn. Bought so many things! :) Ped der red's having sale at lido I got a pair of flats there for only $50. Yes that cheap! Edlyn had to leave for dinner with her family so I went to meet paul and daryl for a bit then I realised that they had a lot of other friends around so I left. Then at night was with alex at gardens when we bumped into clifton and zhiqiang so we chilled together in the end. My aunty just called and I'm going to her place soon to help grandma with some stuff. Another nail appointment at 4 then reunion dinner at 7! Another reunion lunch/dinner the whole of tomorrow again. So busy!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! HOPE YOU HAVE A GR8 ONE.

2009-01-21T06:06:00.001-08:00

I have been sleeping pretty early this week but I'm still feeling tired. At least it is helping me stay awake in class. I thought I should pay more attention in class than to sleep! So much sleep that I went to school during recess today. I didn't know that steph didnt go school too! Poor mel was left all alone for the first half of the day. Haha kidding, I'm sure she has Ain ;) Heh heh! Actually the main reason why I went to school today was for art. No I'm not kidding. At least now I finally know what I'm gonna do what topic and on what so on. So for that, yaye me :D But nothing beats tuesday's time table. I end school at 1! But training just had to spoil it all. Can't wait to get b'div over and done with. Haven't bowled in 10 months and I still lead the school's roll off haha! Can't wait to chuck my bowling stuff a side. Cant wait to forget all about bowling! Can't wait! Not the people thou :) Anw, I shall go attempt to my zuowen. Although I know that I'll end up giving up after 3 sentences ):

Get well soon steph! IMY.

2009-01-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

I can't seem to concentrate in class eversince school reopen. I feel that lessons are just purely boring especially english and accounts. Anw, I kinda promise my mom and myself no more "partying" anymore. I hope I can stick with my promise until the holidays. Time to get started with work!

the new addiction :)

2009-01-04T05:21:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm gonna make this post a short one cos I'm very tired I'm gonna sleep really soon! I slept at 8 this morning and woke up at 12 to meet edlyn in town. Spent like close to $100 on only accesories! Got my balenciaga, finally! :) I had a hard time considering between the motorcycle and giant city. But I ended up getting the giant city one cos it look less complicating and its a little bigger than the motorcycle. So in total I spent like a lot today. I don't even dare to look at the reciepts in my wallet. Ouchhh. Anw, I kinda promised my mom that I won't be going out late anymore. So I think I should start settling down. My body clock is really screwed so thats where I should start working on first. School tomorrow :D See you babys! <3

2009-01-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

Omg school resumes tomorrow! :D I miss everyone so much. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :) Count down at arena was great! It was so awesome! One of the best countdown! I'm so glad that o8 is over and so looking forward to o9! This year will not turn out to be so lively without steph, melissa, ain, siti, anisa, pearlyns, vic, menega and the rest of 4/5. Thanks babes, for all that we've been through. Especially steph, you made me experience how magical a genuine friendship, laughter and fun feels like. And the times we've been through are remarkably unforgettable. Same goes to melissa, isfa and ain. I know its not something honourable to spend another year in sec 5 but honestly, I'm not ready to leave IJ yet. And not forgetting the very happening people that tolerated my "garang-ness" and made my holidays such a krazy and memorable one! Debbie, sai, rach, vel, kenny, patrick, sandra, leon, shawn ling, the other express boys. To the bowling people like willie, kristel, ka, gerald, chris, justin, audrey, ...... All I can say is that you guys are not forgotten and it time to catch up. And lastly, a super duper big thank you to my family and grandma for giving me the support I needed during exams and other issues. I shall not mention bowling cos it was never in my priority this year I must admit. I'm sorry if I disappoint you time after time. Thats about it, I shall not go on and on cos it will take me forever. Gonna go pack my bag and get some rest!

Oh and to youknowwhoyouare:
I know I screwed up so fucking badly and I don't know why you've been turning down my calls and ims. All I can say is that I enjoyed the time I had with you and you've been the sweetest so far. Thanks for being so patient with me. I'm not asking for anything but our friendship back.

2008-12-30T04:53:00.000-08:00

Hault at the moon yesterday was quite crappy. I didn't really like the the music, maybe zouk's the best place ever. But the crowd wasn't as bad as I thought. It wasn't like those typical foul smelling underage party at least. Further more it wasn't that bad cos jj signed me in so I didn't pay hehe. And the stc girls were really friendly to us also cos they say we are lorraine's friend :) After which we went to debbie's house to play guitar hero. It was the first time I ever attempt to such games! I know right, hehe. I can't wait for new year's eve celebration and even more for school to reopen cos I miss everyone so much, I miss CHIJ ): Okay I shall leave the rest for the year end post. Seeee ya!

2008-12-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TOO ALL MY LOVE ONES AND NOT-SO LOVE ONES ALSO :) Im so luving the holidays! Last night was so fun with the guys at leon's place and also debbie's place, of cos! We didn't do a proper count down though ): Anw, I didn't buy present for a lot of people this year cos I didn't have enough time and everytime we plan to go for christmas shopping, something else will crop up. Well, that's one of the reasons. Another is cos I'm fucking broke ): Hehe oh ya something BIG happened last night :D Stephanie got drunk Although she still claim she wasn't. It was so funny, should have seen the way she msged me! Anw, yaye its christmas! Ya cheah will go "excuse me, it christmas" Going for faaaamy dinner soon. Bye! Merry christmas! I love you! I luv holidays!

2008-12-22T09:28:00.001-08:00

HI omg its been long since I came to this page. I've been quite busy. Eh no, in fact, overly busy with family, friends, parties and what not. Everything's been a lot more happening than last month! I'm sorry for those who come to my blog expecting updates! I'm just too busy, really. Last night was Kkkrrazy. I know I made a joke out of myself in the balcony! Debbie told me I was chewing on the aloe vera plant O.O and what! I was molesting supri? I don't recall any of those. And just so you know, christmas is in 2 day's time and the holidays are coming to an end.

2008-12-15T19:18:00.001-08:00

high time you update please ! [:

<3 you , steph

2008-12-04T18:58:00.000-08:00

Yay today is my last day at work I'm so excited but then again, a part of me wants to stay for the people that'v been guiding me for the past month. I got Prince a bottle of wine cos he's been really really nice to me. So did the rest! I can't wait for the day to end cos ..... :) I'll be meeting steph at the airport and we're both gonna gain 5kg by the end of today by eating eating & eating. Ohya, and to pick my boyfriend up also! After that we will be going to udders for ice cream (eat again!) if I'v got no plans with the guys. Haha. I just saw my birthday post on Steph's blog: www.rahhthang.blogspot.com Its damn cute omg haha!

2008-12-03T20:16:00.001-08:00

I was suppose to watch a movie with Germaine last night but she can't drag her lazy ass out of bed so I went to meet Edlyn instead. Went to zouk with her, Leon and this other terribly extremely horribly quiet guy. Edlyn's brother came so she went with her brother then I went to look for Howie after I got my stamp. Thank god for Howie and Daniel or else I'd be bored to death by Leon and the quiet guy. Haha then after a while I went home cos I needed to so SK gave me a lift back. I'm so excited cos I'm gonna collect my cheque tomorrow. Which also means I don't have to come back to NTU alumni club ever again :) ho ho ho hello santa.

2008-12-03T00:56:00.001-08:00

I am so pissed I'm gonna kill somebody like now!

2008-12-01T06:48:00.000-08:00

Hi its coming to an end of my birthday already ): Anyway, I know I didn't reply any of you on fb and alot of ur msges. So here's a special thank you (sheen'd say TY haha) to all of you that remembered. Also to those that just came across my page and decided to send me some wishes! :)

Shayna
Mom/Dad
Grandma
Aunty(s)
Stephy
Willie
Lenny
Stace
Quanqi
Michaela
Dehui
Tim Cheah
Bernice
Kimberly
Sandra
Jovel
Sheen Jet
Ying Xing
Olivia
Clare
Debbie
Shanna
Kawai
Madeleine
Angeline
Jonathan Tay
Jonathan Neo
Gerald
Anthony
Melissa B
Shaun
Kelly
Kristel
Isfa
Cheryl
Sabi
Kevin (happy birthday to you too)
Alyssa
Valerie
Yulica
Patrick
Cheryl Lim & co.
Prince
Captain Lin
Clifton
Paul
Debra
Leon
Jazreel
Azri
Jomin
Germaine
Harris
Bams
Austyn
Sharon Koh
Mark Wong
Sarah Almodiel

I hope I didn't leave out anyone
THANKS GUYS :)

2008-12-01T03:42:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me :O) this year's birthday isn't that bad afterall. Work was damn fun today and Captain Lin, the very charming pilot treated me my birthday lunch at 8th degree :) And also, Thanks Prince, for the pressie! Prince was telling me a lot of interesting stories about stJames cos he used to work there as a bouncer :O Friday will be my last day at work and only now I'm starting to like the people at the alumni club even more. So last night I blew the candle light off once the clock striked 12! :) I just came back from my birthday dinner [part 2] from grandma's place and elysia was there! She's so freaking naughty I can't stand it. But damn cute also! haha. Okay here are some pix!

2008-11-29T07:45:00.000-08:00

Oh ya btw I was clearing my room earlier and I realised that I should do something about my bags cos otherwise they'll just be rotting away in my closet and they're taking up alot of space! So anw I really think that this Prada bag is damn ugly and I don't want it anymore. But then again, youre not me! So if by chance you find it pretty and want it, just drop me a msg or e-mail. Then I'll decide again if I should give or sell it to you. hahaha. I know I suck at retailing!

I know what you're thinking, please stop laughing at my bed sheet. Ya I have another Isabella Fiore thats in perfect condition. Its retailing at about US1.7k. FYI its not available in singapore. Only United States, Canada, Mexico and Japan.

Haha thats about it. E-mail me at mandyng-@hotmail.com